Oh my word...I almost forgot to blog!
It's been a little over a week, and I'm already forgetting...uh oh.
Today I had my first day off with almost nothing to do. There was no
preparing for a trip, or catching up on grading, or anything else
really for that matter. Today was a day of rest, a gift from the Lord
to remind me to slow down and enjoy what's happening in the world around
me. I slept in and relished every minute of it, snuggling in my
blanket.
The day started off like it usually does (or how I usually try to
start it off): reading the word, sending up prayers, and drinking tea
while eating yogurt and my delicious kashi cereal. But this morning,
amidst all of the wonderfulness, I started to think about how this would
be if it was a daily ritual. Not necessarily the sleeping in, but the
option of staying home and creating a place of rest for my family.
For the first time in my life, I thought of what it would be like to be a housewife.
Granted, it was a bit of a stretch to compare what I was experiencing
on one day off to the experiences of a housewife. But, I began to
wonder what I would do if I was ever in that situation. Would I love
it, or would I dread it? All of my life, I have vowed to never be such a
thing. I have looked down it.
I have downright despised it.
And now?
I don't think it's half bad. In fact, I don't think it's bad at all.
When I hear about mothers who stay home with their children, who
create beautiful and safe homes for their family, I do not judge as I
used to. It's probably because my views on womanhood and manhood are
changing, but also because I believe that family is something worth
investing in. God is teaching me that it is alright if someone's
ambition is to be a mother and a wife. He is showing me that being that
wife, or that mother, for a family is just as important, if not more,
than any other occupation.
And, I think for me, the best example I can think of is with my
mother. All of my life I saw my mother having to be strong for the both
of us, which she was (and is) really good at. My mother was a single
mom, but she had a gracious family that surrounded her and that loved/s
us. However, I watched my mom work for as long as I remember, and I
think our relationship suffered because of it. Was that her fault?
Absolutely not. She was doing what we needed to survive, and I am so
grateful for that. But, that was the only way I really got to see
her...working, and eventually she even owned her own business. My mom
is a boss, literally ;)
But, shortly after my sister was born, my mom had the opportunity to
stay at home with her, and really become a housewife. This is where I
saw my mom blossom into an even more amazing mother than she already
was. I saw her heart invested in my sister, and in their time together,
and I loved watching it. I loved being a part of it, and I think my
mom really enjoyed it as well.
But, like me, my mom has always been someone who just feels called to
work, and to do something worthwhile, which is why she now works at my
sisters school as an assistant. I am happy to say that I am like my mom
in that way. Although we have a heart for our families, we also feel
called to work and to make a difference for other people as well.
All this goes to say that God is teaching me that it is okay if I end
up as a housewife, or if I end up as more. And He's showing me how He
can turn my preconceived notions about things upside down, and right
side up again.
I love the Lord, and even though His wisdom is obvious, it always manages to surprise my heart.
In Christ,
Lilia
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