It
seems that although people have had varying thoughts on my
intelligence, demeanor, and looks, the one thing that has remained
constant has been my assuredness of myself regardless of whatever was
going on around me.
But
lately I feel like that confidence has been tapered by a desire to be
the best, even when it doesn't really matter or have any real
meaning. Tonight, while talking with a friend, we discovered our
need to be the best at anything and everything. We discussed how
people would point out a talent in someone and we would immediately
think in our minds how we could do the same, and more importantly,
how we could do BETTER.
This
need for perfection, and perfection over others, isn't healthy and
certainly isn't of the Lord. But how true is it of all of us, at
some point? Lately, I've been justifying this behavior because I've
seen others who I believe do certain things only for the attention,
or the glory, and so I think it is okay for me to do the same.
But
it's not.
Lilia,
it's not.
Christian,
it's not!
And
the only way that I can remind myself about this is to remember that
I am called to serve. I am not called to be famous, or to make a
name for myself. I am not called to be in the spotlight, or to have
people come to God through my talents. No, I am called to love, and
to serve, and to show people who God is through my life, not through
my constant need to be the best.
Now,
this is not to say that we are not to live with, and purse,
excellence in our lives, but I am saying that we can't afford to be
consumed by it, especially when excellence takes away from the true
meaning of our lives: loving, believing, and following Jesus.
Look
in your own life. Are you doing everything for Jesus, or are you
doing it for the fame, the recognition, the glory?
The
sooner you are honest with yourself, the quicker you can be confident
in how you are living your life, and who you are living it for.
In
Christ,
Lilia
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