In chapter 11 of Matthew, that I read today, there was a small part that stood out to me unlike any other time I've read through this gospel. Jesus is discussing how he and John the Baptist have been described through preconceived, and negative, notions, John as a “demon” and Jesus himself as a glutton and drunkard:
“For
John came neither eating nor drinking, and they say, ‘He has a
demon.’ The Son of Man came eating and drinking, and they say,
‘Here is a glutton and a drunkard, a friend of tax collectors and
“sinners.”’ But wisdom is proved right by her actions.”
Matthew 11:18-19
Here,
Jesus is illustrating how He and John are both despised for nothing.
In this situation, and with this line of thinking, it seemed to be
that they were in trouble one way or another. But, it's what Jesus
says at the end that really stuck with me: but wisdom is proved
right by her actions.
It got
me thinking: what am I doing?
In my
job, in my life, in my faith...are any of my actions wise?
Am I
even trying to establish myself in wisdom through my actions?
Essentially,
Jesus is proving a point saying that although people will mock and
sometimes slander, your actions will ultimately show what wisdom you
have, if any.
I am
so worried, so often, that what I am doing is not glorifying at all.
And sometimes I wonder, does my existence really make a difference?
Am I anything to behold?
Why
would the God who created everything ever be satisfied with me?
And
then I read through the gospels, and I see Jesus processing things
the way that I do, except He has the answers I need, and so
desperately desire.
I've
realized that in order to gain wisdom from God, I need to be
conscious in my actions and what I spend my life doing. Am I helping
others? Is the desire even present? Am I loving without thought for
myself? Am I loving as He loves me?
Or am
I just wasting away on facebook and fast food?
Am I more worried
about what I'm going to wear than the fact that so many people around
the world have nothing to wear?
Examine
your life, as I do mine; find out if what you are doing is proving
you wise, or is showing you to be a fool.
At my
age, the thought of being wise is so ridiculous that I can't even
begin to fathom it. But, I realize that now is the time to start
storing up wisdom because there will come a time when God will
graciously put people in your life who may need it. And one of those
people may be yourself.
Be
kind to yourself as you follow Jesus, but also push to find out what
you are doing that is wise so that you can think on those things, and
continue doing them to the glory of God.
In
Christ,
Lilia
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