My daily reading time has been so
difficult lately. It's not for lack of time, but because it's tough
to read over and over and OVER again how Israel failed, and how they
turned away from God. Why is it so difficult, I wonder?
Maybe because when I look at these
stories of Israel, I see myself.
I'm worrying so much about so many
things, even though we JUST heard a message (not even 2-3 weeks ago)
that told me not to worry, I am falling by the wayside far too often.
I think about where I'm going to live
next year, and how I need to find a job that will make me more money
so that I can do more than live from paycheck to paycheck.
And even though I am reminded in the
word over and over and OVER again that God is provider, and has a
plan, I still doubt.
I am the Israelite.
I build my own gods to meet my desires,
and worship idols that the world gives me. When will I stop seeking
the fake faithfulness of the world, and wait for the genuine glory
that God wants through my life?
When, Israel...when?
When, Lilia...when?
God is teaching me to see myself for
what I really am, from time to time, and is calling me to bear
through what I sometimes find “boring,” to realize that the story
of Israel is my story. The story of God calling his people to
redemption is the story that He has in my life.
My good friend Cynthia sent me a verse
today, and it couldn't have been more encouraging. It's Matthew 11:
28-30. Look it up, and be blessed. It is where Jesus tells us to go
to Him, all of us who are burdened and heavy laden and He will give
us rest.
I need that rest so much, and God is
teaching me that although I am the Israelite in my doubt and my
impatience, I am also the Israelite that is called to be a part of
those that He has chosen.
I am redeemed, and I want to live like
it.
Set your sight on the Lord, the hope of
glory.
In Christ,
Lilia
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